11.30.08

11.30.08

do you remember the last time brightness counteracted around you? or when the brightness held you in and out of still moments?

I used to think that I would never see things positive, that only a darkness would control my movements and thoughts. This was a bit naive, and well these thoughts began when i first experienced a sadness, a sadness that stuck to me, for many years. Specifically, life taken one after another, multiple failures, and always an attraction of low self-esteem. So here I am, a new adventure an aspect, and weakness, that I quickly need to learn to overcome. I am not sure I have overcome my downfalls, but I sure have tried to make up for them. And what i mean in this, once I learn something, a hard lesson from something as simple as asking the right question or shit just making a quick simple decision, I know how to react to another situation.

I am sick of saying, "I don't know", not being completely informed or being able to get simple things done.

This is useless ramble.

Tonight, for the first time, we began to fight, doing the right thing, and in this game, you are always wrong, you can never win.