Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
01.15.09
Today was a pretty cool day I have to admit. I really got next to no sleep last night because of the snoring, i should figure out how to post the recording of it, my friends got a kick out of it. I am probably going to hell, for doing these things but if i can't sleep, i might as well have some fun. I am entitled to it.
I am on the interenet talking to a bunch of people. So doing a blog is somewhat out of the question. I am waiting for my sushi to come. I am really becoming such a fucking dork, hey that is okay.
SO back to this day, the last thursday in the United States, soon we will be going to a completely new place full of sand and nothingness, who cares, i am ready to get this shit over with. I spent a majority of the morning reading Breaking Dawn, eating veggie lo mien, and watching the big bang theory and the fourth season of it is always sunny in philadelphia.
Around three o'clock i decided it was time to leave the building, I went and got coffee, bought a usb hub, took out cash, and ran into someone i went to college with, interesting. Also, a lot of girls in the company got their hair chopped off. I understand, why it makes sense, plus with so much change actually and finally coming at us. I don't think I could cut my hair, it took so long to grow it out and I really like having long hair even though i always have to put it up in the stupid pony tail/bun, and it is really thick. So here I am at the end of the day, playing on the internet, and umm.. waiting for sushi.
I need to get back to my meaningful blogs, but to be honest mindless reading and days leads to mindless everything. I also think if I allow myself back to those few weeks in december I will get a taste of depression and I am not ready for that, and actually I want taste or sample of it. i want to be happy and myself, also I want my fucking feet to heal so my fat ass can go for a run.
I am on the interenet talking to a bunch of people. So doing a blog is somewhat out of the question. I am waiting for my sushi to come. I am really becoming such a fucking dork, hey that is okay.
SO back to this day, the last thursday in the United States, soon we will be going to a completely new place full of sand and nothingness, who cares, i am ready to get this shit over with. I spent a majority of the morning reading Breaking Dawn, eating veggie lo mien, and watching the big bang theory and the fourth season of it is always sunny in philadelphia.
Around three o'clock i decided it was time to leave the building, I went and got coffee, bought a usb hub, took out cash, and ran into someone i went to college with, interesting. Also, a lot of girls in the company got their hair chopped off. I understand, why it makes sense, plus with so much change actually and finally coming at us. I don't think I could cut my hair, it took so long to grow it out and I really like having long hair even though i always have to put it up in the stupid pony tail/bun, and it is really thick. So here I am at the end of the day, playing on the internet, and umm.. waiting for sushi.
I need to get back to my meaningful blogs, but to be honest mindless reading and days leads to mindless everything. I also think if I allow myself back to those few weeks in december I will get a taste of depression and I am not ready for that, and actually I want taste or sample of it. i want to be happy and myself, also I want my fucking feet to heal so my fat ass can go for a run.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
1.14.09
This is a poem
A combination of a sentence to form a rhythm
You are a poem
Little pieces of my senses to form an image
-ma Jolie Bear VS Shark
Today was a pretty lame day, I invested some money into infrared film, and I am excited to use it, when I get home. I think I want to either make or purchase an R strap and a 25a red filter 77mm for my next camera purchase. Around 10 am I went to Dunkin Donuts and got my daily coffee and bagel, what else is there really to do? I am just waiting around to leave. Really just waiting around to leave.
I wish I was able to be a little more stimulated intellectually, however the twilight series isn’t very intellectual, I think I am more disappointed in this addiction the more I read. I am having a hard time finishing the last book. I feel like the author just ran out of material for the storey and decided to make up crap just to finish the series. But I am not an author so who am I to judge?
I watched one of my favorite movies called Raising Helen; you laugh and cry it is a fantastic film, while also being extremely corny. I love corny films.
There was a fire drill today. A group of people were sweeping the hallway and the cloud of dust set off the fire alarm. We waited about 15 minutes for the fire department to come to turn off the alarm, typical and a bit funny
Well off to my nightly meeting, and I will try and read more of breaking dawn, hopefully I can sleep tonight.
A combination of a sentence to form a rhythm
You are a poem
Little pieces of my senses to form an image
-ma Jolie Bear VS Shark
Today was a pretty lame day, I invested some money into infrared film, and I am excited to use it, when I get home. I think I want to either make or purchase an R strap and a 25a red filter 77mm for my next camera purchase. Around 10 am I went to Dunkin Donuts and got my daily coffee and bagel, what else is there really to do? I am just waiting around to leave. Really just waiting around to leave.
I wish I was able to be a little more stimulated intellectually, however the twilight series isn’t very intellectual, I think I am more disappointed in this addiction the more I read. I am having a hard time finishing the last book. I feel like the author just ran out of material for the storey and decided to make up crap just to finish the series. But I am not an author so who am I to judge?
I watched one of my favorite movies called Raising Helen; you laugh and cry it is a fantastic film, while also being extremely corny. I love corny films.
There was a fire drill today. A group of people were sweeping the hallway and the cloud of dust set off the fire alarm. We waited about 15 minutes for the fire department to come to turn off the alarm, typical and a bit funny
Well off to my nightly meeting, and I will try and read more of breaking dawn, hopefully I can sleep tonight.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
another day without a purpose....
Sitting here, watching everyone reaching out through their laptops trying to connect with friends, family, with a shape of the real world, and what impact they still have with their lives. I am in the same boat, I am chatting with my cousin chris, enjoying him tell me about his life with his children and wife, and what is going on with our family. I am a bit disappointed with myself that I didn’t take time over my 10 days of leav to go visit everyone, and take more pictures. That is one thing I have to do on this deployment take lots of pictures, write as much as I can, and keep in touch with the amazing people I have in my life.
The count down is on till we leave, till I cross the big ocean, and begin what I have spent years training for, and months to catch up. It is almost one year ago I found out that my fate would change, that I would be going somewhere different doing something other then sitting at children's hospital and doing the work for two surgeons, I am not sure which life was easier, and I don’t want to place my mind into those thoughts, because it makes me dream of being home. Then I see the disappointment in myself for not living up to simple things, with a little bit of sacrifice for just a little bit of time. Nonsense.
I had a great visit with my friend Paige and Justin. We did a photo walk through a town near the post, ate at a german restaurant that had scary dolls, and just hang out. I really like just hanging out and staying out of the bars, being able to hear people and enjoy their company. I like to think that with my appreciation for just being with people, that Justin and I are connecting on a hole new level, and its nice, to fall in love in such a different way, I think you can only feel this when seperation is involved and great strain is upon both of you. We are just reaching out to hold on, and build another book to are life together.
I guess that is all for now. I love dunkin donuts coffee.
The count down is on till we leave, till I cross the big ocean, and begin what I have spent years training for, and months to catch up. It is almost one year ago I found out that my fate would change, that I would be going somewhere different doing something other then sitting at children's hospital and doing the work for two surgeons, I am not sure which life was easier, and I don’t want to place my mind into those thoughts, because it makes me dream of being home. Then I see the disappointment in myself for not living up to simple things, with a little bit of sacrifice for just a little bit of time. Nonsense.
I had a great visit with my friend Paige and Justin. We did a photo walk through a town near the post, ate at a german restaurant that had scary dolls, and just hang out. I really like just hanging out and staying out of the bars, being able to hear people and enjoy their company. I like to think that with my appreciation for just being with people, that Justin and I are connecting on a hole new level, and its nice, to fall in love in such a different way, I think you can only feel this when seperation is involved and great strain is upon both of you. We are just reaching out to hold on, and build another book to are life together.
I guess that is all for now. I love dunkin donuts coffee.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
6 JAN09
A new year is upon us, and for me this will be a year I will experience and see things I would never of in the great land of pittsburgh, pa. This year started off by being able to sleep in my own bed, and wake up to one of the worst hang overs in a very long time. But it also involved having to get ready to head back to New Jersey to be a soldier, and the process to transition is in fact very intensive. My friends said that they were able to see the difference from soldier to civilian and civilian to soldier. I am not sure if this foresaken uniform puts a spin on my personalitiy, because I really go from laid back and happy, to partially able to smile and a bit more obnoxious I think.
In just a few short days (2 weeks) I will be heading over to another land, full of defeat and saddness. Everyday will feel like the same and hopefully we are able to do some fun stuff. I need to begin my essay for a zine, and involve mr. graves in daily activities if I can ever find him again. I also need to do self portraits and use the shit out of the fisheye. It is yellow with a blue cap, the blue cap is a present from a very dear friend, it makes me feel like a child having that with me.
I just finished the second book to the Twilight series and I can not wait to get my hands on the third and fourth book, I didn’t think I would have been able to finish the two books so quickly but it is an easy read that is for sure. This book didn’t really involve any great sayings, quotes, it is a juevinille love story that I can not take my hands off of. However my thoughts have lead me this conculsion:
Is the human body and mind only capable of being able to love so much or handle 70-100 years of life? In this book a mortal falls in love with a monster like immortal, however they love each other unconditionaly, and have some boundries within their realtionship, since the boy drinks human blood. I think that we are able to handle and give more love than most we are given credit for, the human body is so fragile, and however amazing. Even though we are so delicate, we have a spirit given to us by God that makes us in a lot of ways untouchable. Some of us exhibit this more than others, for example my friend Richard Berrettini was untouchable in a sense that nothing evil could harm his soul, and it leaked even to his body. When a 500 pound bomb hit his vehicle in Afganistan he was still alive, and was able to surive for 7 days, that shows me that his spirit leaked into his body to see whatever through. He is dearly missed, everyday.
So are you untouchable? My body is made of mud and bone, it has been shaped like clay through the hand of God. Now it is harden and sturdy to endure a combat zone, and heart ache from being away from friends and family. In a sense I am untouchable, but there are bigger things than my body in this atmoshpere that can take it away, however my spirit and sould belong to God, and that makes me untouchable, to this world and to the next.
Well I have to get some food, and then head to my appointment to make a podiatry appointment, this process is really so silly, extremely silly honestly, and one day I will be able to post this.
A new year is upon us, and for me this will be a year I will experience and see things I would never of in the great land of pittsburgh, pa. This year started off by being able to sleep in my own bed, and wake up to one of the worst hang overs in a very long time. But it also involved having to get ready to head back to New Jersey to be a soldier, and the process to transition is in fact very intensive. My friends said that they were able to see the difference from soldier to civilian and civilian to soldier. I am not sure if this foresaken uniform puts a spin on my personalitiy, because I really go from laid back and happy, to partially able to smile and a bit more obnoxious I think.
In just a few short days (2 weeks) I will be heading over to another land, full of defeat and saddness. Everyday will feel like the same and hopefully we are able to do some fun stuff. I need to begin my essay for a zine, and involve mr. graves in daily activities if I can ever find him again. I also need to do self portraits and use the shit out of the fisheye. It is yellow with a blue cap, the blue cap is a present from a very dear friend, it makes me feel like a child having that with me.
I just finished the second book to the Twilight series and I can not wait to get my hands on the third and fourth book, I didn’t think I would have been able to finish the two books so quickly but it is an easy read that is for sure. This book didn’t really involve any great sayings, quotes, it is a juevinille love story that I can not take my hands off of. However my thoughts have lead me this conculsion:
Is the human body and mind only capable of being able to love so much or handle 70-100 years of life? In this book a mortal falls in love with a monster like immortal, however they love each other unconditionaly, and have some boundries within their realtionship, since the boy drinks human blood. I think that we are able to handle and give more love than most we are given credit for, the human body is so fragile, and however amazing. Even though we are so delicate, we have a spirit given to us by God that makes us in a lot of ways untouchable. Some of us exhibit this more than others, for example my friend Richard Berrettini was untouchable in a sense that nothing evil could harm his soul, and it leaked even to his body. When a 500 pound bomb hit his vehicle in Afganistan he was still alive, and was able to surive for 7 days, that shows me that his spirit leaked into his body to see whatever through. He is dearly missed, everyday.
So are you untouchable? My body is made of mud and bone, it has been shaped like clay through the hand of God. Now it is harden and sturdy to endure a combat zone, and heart ache from being away from friends and family. In a sense I am untouchable, but there are bigger things than my body in this atmoshpere that can take it away, however my spirit and sould belong to God, and that makes me untouchable, to this world and to the next.
Well I have to get some food, and then head to my appointment to make a podiatry appointment, this process is really so silly, extremely silly honestly, and one day I will be able to post this.
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